Monday, October 5, 2026

The Bookbinder, part 1

 20 November 1999



There had been some trick of the light, some distortion through the glass. Tobey was convinced that he had seen someone inside. He had walked past the aged storefront before, never really paying any attention to the place. Not this time. 


A November day, already past that last really warm day in November. It was spitting a frigid sleet and the dark approached rapidly. He really just wanted to get home, which wasn't much further. Only five more blocks and to the right was his street. Still, he remained there at the glass for a time, hands pressed, face peering into the window. He could not say for certain what he thought he had seen. It had only been a flash, a blur in his head of something grotesque and misshapen. Now, as the bleak evening was falling around him, he could see nothing. Only dark, dusty shadows within. The weather hastened his exit from this scene, and a short time later he arrived at home. By dinner time he had forgotten the incident.


The following day was a Saturday. No school, no job to go to, no obligations on the calendar. Tobey slept until nearly 10:00 and felt no shame for it. He had rolled over lazily to peer the analogue alarm clock next to his bed when it read 9:48. He just assumed that it was AM. He remained half lounged across the bed, rearranged his morning wood and decided to take the opportunity to vigorously scratch his pubes. No reason, just that his hand was already in the neighborhood.


The urge to urinate grew with each breath, still he could not muster the energy to get out of bed. He made it until 9:52, when his bare feet hit the floor and padded off to the bathroom in the hall. He left the bathroom door open as he discharged a night's worth of Dr. Pepper, mostly into the toilet bowl. In between bursts, Tobey stopped to listen to the hallway behind him. It was then he realized the emptiness of the house around him. Ten o'clock on a Saturday morning, his mom and older sister going about their lives like he wasn't even there. It was perfect.


He didn't bother grabbing a shirt, but he did return to his room to slide his bare feet into a warm pair of slippers. It was warm enough up on the second floor, but the floors downstairs were sure to be freezing. He made his way down the stairs and into the kitchen. A look out the window above the sink showed a bright, blue day, not a cloud in the sky. Despite the bright sun, it was a bitter cold day, the wind fierce and biting from the North. The few remaining leaves of russet, gold and crimson were being ripped away from already sparse limbs. Autumn, too sweet and too short, would give way to Winter quietly this year.


Tobey rummaged about the cupboards and drawers for a bowl, a spoon and a large box of Honeycomb cereal. He dropped the spoon carelessly into the bowl with a loud clatter, then poured a heaping mound from the cereal box. There was a half-gallon jug of milk from Reiter's Dairy on the top shelf of the refrigerator, half full and passing a perfunctory sniff test. Breakfast was served.


He placed the bowl down on the small kitchen table, dragging a metal framed chair across the linoleum floor. It hadn't really made that much of a noise, but in the silent, empty house it seemed to echo off into every other room. The only other sound was the wind howling outside the house. There were a few moments when he thought the wind was actually shaking the house. It may have been.


After he had shoveled a few mouthfuls of the Honeycomb, he found that even the crunching was not enough to drown out the gale outside. His mother kept a portable radio parked on this table, where she often would listen while taking her morning coffee before work. Tobey eyed the radio between bites, finally deciding that AM radio static would sound better than this. He reached over to casually switch it on, without checking the dial to see what it was tuned for. As expected, the speaker crackled to life with WJR, where Mom would catch her weather and traffic reports. 


Some gearbox was blabbing away about the finer points of estate planning, and possible tax implications. They might as well have been speaking in Greek; it was all gobbledygook to him. But at least it was noise. Chatter, just background noise, other than that wind tunnel beyond the window. There he sat for another fifteen minutes, munching away while staring blankly at the radio. When he reached the bottom, he picked up the bowl and slurped the remaining milk loudly. He drained it, plunked the bowl down and punctuated the act with a very satisfied, " Ahhhh....".


It was at this point that Tobey made a very consequential decision. His thought process was thus: There was part of a bag of weed stashed in the garage. It was cold outside, therefore necessary to put on winter clothes to retrieve said bag of weed. This is when Tobey decided that he would get dressed and get ready to go outside. Part of this beautifully simple original plan did come to fruition. But then, as they say, there was some other shit happened.


Once fixed upon his plan, Tobey was ruthlessly efficient in assembling his wardrobe. Fresh pair of Hanes, one pair wool socks. One pair of gently worn but still clean Lee jeans. First tee-shirt in reach, favorite green fleece hoodie. All assembled and attired in about three minutes. Tobey had never been late to school a day of his life. He was off, down the stairs to the mud room, adjacent the laundry room behind the kitchen. An exterior storm door exited from the mud room to the side of the house. The detached garage was only a few feet away.


Tobey found his boots, laced them up hastily. He took a heavy, oversized Army surplus parka from a hook on the wall, grabbed his Detroit Lions toque from the bench, and took a moment longer looking for a pair of gloves, before finally realizing they were in the parka sleeves. So far, everything had gone quite smoothly, the only thing left now was to brave the elements.


The interior door made a popping sound as the frozen weather strip separated from the frame. Tobey cracked it open a few inches and took a quick peek before reaching for the storm door handle. He could see that the storm was rattling violently, buffeted by the north wind channeled between the house and the garage. Across the driveway, about ten feet from the blacktop, there was a chain-link fence marking their boundary with the neighbors. Someone, years before they had moved in here, had mounted one of those large, clock-faced garden thermometers upon the fence. Through the frosted plexiglass pane in the storm door, he read the temp at thirteen- or fourteen-degrees F. With that wind, the wind chill was surely below zero! With a sigh, Tobey quietly reminded himself that this had to be done.


The moment he put his shoulder against the inside of the storm door and pushed it against the wind, a giant vacuum rushed into the space, slamming the interior door shut. He failed to get clear of it and it nearly knocked him down. He held on for dear life to the storm door to pull himself back upright against the wind. If he didn't take care in how he stood, he ran the risk of the oversized parka acting as a sail. After steadying his feet, he managed to get the storm door secured to it's latch and then press on to the garage.


It was only ten steps away, but it was like going uphill. When he arrived at the side entry to the detached, two-car garage, he found the knob coated in frost. His gloves were too new, too slick to gain any grasp to turn it. Tobey stood there a moment, contemplating which hand he was willing to sacrifice. Instinctively settling for the right hand, he slipped the glove off and tucked it under his left arm while briskly turning the knob and kneeing the door open. He leaped inside, slamming the door back in place behind him. It still felt like an icebox inside that garage, but at least it was in from the horrendous gale blowing outside.


He stuffed his gloves into the pockets of the parka and briskly rubbed his hands together. Inside of the garage it was maybe a degree or two above the freezing mark. He could manage for a little while without the gloves. The garage had two bays, the first of which he had entered. That was his mom's space. Parked in the next bay was his grandmother's '59 Buick. It hadn't moved since they had moved into the house three years before. Behind the Buick there was a workbench, nestled against the back wall of the garage. That workbench was Tobey's objective.


The top of the work bench was strewn with dust-covered items, most of which were exactly the same as the day they moved in. There were a variety of tools, some broken and others just left in a state of neglect. There were bins, large and small, in a hodgepodge of shapes and material; receptacles for fasteners and hardware of nearly every sort imaginable. In one corner was a stack of yellowed and grimy papers, manuals and warranties for tools and appliances, many of which had already been retired. Tobey had explored much of this space, never finding anything of particular interest. What interested him there on this day, rested upon one of the shelves beneath.


There was just enough room behind the trunk of the Buick to wedge between it and the bench. Tobey was of slight enough build to fit into this space and still be able to crouch down to access the lower shelves. He'd put his stash inside of an old Folger's Coffee tin with a miscellany of nuts, bolts and washers, shoved to the very back of the shelf. He reached until he found the familiar rim of the can, then dragged it from it's hiding place. The light from the back window above the bench was dim down at the floor, but Tobey could still plainly see that he had a problem. He had made the error of pushing that can too far back, to a point where it had rested against the back wall. Below the window. A bad seal permitted a leak down the wall. The contents inside the little sandwich baggie were fine, but the book of orange Zig-Zag papers he had carelessly tossed loose into the can were now soaked and utterly useless.


"Shit!", he quietly cursed. He knew he didn't have any other papers stashed anywhere else. This one was it and it hadn't even been a full book. His mind then quickly went to the soda can pipe. Easily improvised and no big deal if you lost the can. Except that every ounce of soda on the property was in bottles. Damn the luck! He was going to have to make the trek to the Clark station, up on Division Street. He didn't relish the trip in these frigid conditions, but it wasn't too far to go. Probably make the round trip in under fifteen minutes. He'd buy a book of Zig-Zags and a six pack of Dr. Pepper. In cans.


Tobey stuffed his little baggie into an interior pocket of the parka, then checked his pants pockets to make sure he had money. He found a ten, a wad of singles and some loose change. It would be enough for what he needed to get. He slipped the gloves back on and braced himself for the walk ahead.


After clumsily pulling the door shut, Tobey bounded down the short driveway out to Mulberry Street and turned left, that howling wind licking at his heels every step of the way. After five houses he arrived at Claypool Avenue, turning left again, now into the face of the wind. It was only seven blocks from there, up to Division Street and the Clark station at the Northeast corner. He pulled the drawstrings of the parka hood tighter and leaned into it. He tried to find some comfort in knowing that the wind would be at his back most of the way home.


He found that once he got moving at a steady pace it wasn't so bad. To the eye, it was an absolutely gorgeous day. The skies were utterly clear and bright, having the look of the shirtsleeve weather one might enjoy in mid-July. Once out in the open for a while, Tobey could feel the bright sun actually warming upon the parka. For a moment the sunlight danced like he was in some dream world, a memory of some other place and time. He could almost ignore the cold biting at his face. 


 He had made about half of the trek up Claypool, walking on the west side of the street. As it was a Saturday, there was not much activity out on the street. There had not been a single car on the road and the only sign of any activity at all came now, in the block ahead. Tobey stopped at the corner to check out what this was. A Consumers Power truck was pulled up at the curb, amber caution lights blinking, while a pair of workmen were arranging cones and tape to set up a temporary barricade. Since the path would be blocked, he decided to cross to the other side of the street there at the corner of Redbud and Claypool.


After hustling across to the east side, he continued north. He looked back to the other side, watching the workers. He couldn't tell if they were there for the electric or the gas. They were at the back of their truck, gathering something from the tool bins. Tobey didn't know enough about it to tell what they were doing. As he walked on, he happened to notice that the area they had taped off ended just before the old, abandoned store he had peered inside the day before. For the first time that he had ever paid attention, he looked above the entry and could make out most of the faded sign: Thibodaux & Co. - Bookbinders. He tried sounding out the name in his head. thigh-bow-dox? thib-o-dax? 


Tobey put his head down, leaning into the wind, and pressed on the remaining distance until the crossing at Division Street. A quick look, both ways, showed the street was deserted. He still dashed across the road, even though he needn't have. It was approaching noon and Tobey had forgotten that a little less than an hour to the north, in Ann Arbor, the Michigan Wolverines were hosting the arch-rival Buckeyes today. Kickoff was less than an hour away and the vast majority of the region were already hunkered about their television sets, with their buffets of gameday fare. Tobey was a decided minority, not really interested in college football at all.


An annoying electronic chime sounded at the door. That was new. He saw it was the old hippie, Earl, working today. They exchanged nods as Tobey found the stack of Pepsi stock at the end of the coolers. He had to rearrange the stack of cardboard cartons before finding the Dr. Pepper. He hooked his fingers into the plastic collar that held the cans together and then stopped to ponder how he would manage this with his heavy gloves on. From his stool behind the cashier station Earl called out, "Hey kid, there's some cold ones in the cooler if ya want."


"Nah, I don't need nothin' cold today! These are for later...", Tobey replied, holding up the six pack as he turned to the counter, "and I'm gonna need a pack of those orange Zig-Zags. Or whatever you got."


"Well, let's see. I got orange somethin' here... your Mom know yer smokin' that shit?" Earl plucked a book of the orange Zig-Zags and rang up the total. "Five-forty-three, young man."


Tobey grinned sheepishly as he handed Earl six dollars. He took the change and the rolling papers, stuffing them into his pants pocket, then removed the cans from the plastic collar to arrange in the large cargo pockets on the front of the parka. Problem solved. Donning his gloves again he made ready for the trip back home. At least the wind would mostly be at his back this time. 


The sun, climbing to it's mid-day roost, lit the path south on Claypool very brightly. Only a narrow strip of shadow fell, along the sidewalk on the west side of the street, where the Consumer's crew was now joined by a smaller truck and another man in a reflective vest. Tobey figured this guy was some kind of boss. Taking a quick look both ways he still found Division to be abandoned. He trotted across to the other side, the same way he had come before. As he proceeded down the street, he kept watching the utility crew, wondering what it was about.


The night before he had stayed up rather late, playing games on his Playstation and listening to Art Bell on the radio. There had been a lot of discussion about the looming Y2K catastrophe. Tobey wasn't really sure he understood what the big worry was about the whole thing, but they sure made it sound terrifying. Even in his youthful naivete, Tobey had enough sense about him to realize that many of the callers to the program were whack jobs. Then there were the ones who seemed to be making sense. That's when it got terrifying. He started to wonder if this Saturday morning job site had something to do with some Y2K preparation. 


When he entered the block where they were set up, he stopped there on the opposite sidewalk to watch for a minute. The view was partially obstructed, but he could see that they had opened the steel doors in the concrete. He'd always wondered what those doors had been for. He could see the third man, the boss, more clearly now. He wore the same heavy jacket as the others, with the reflective vest over and a hardhat, but instead of coveralls and work boots, this man wore ordinary trousers and dress shoes. Beneath the brim of his hardhat were large sunglasses with mirrored lenses. For a moment Tobey was sure that the man was looking right at him, but he couldn't be sure.


Tobey continued to stand right there watching, as the boss man walked around to the back of his truck and then stepped back up onto the sidewalk. The man continued right up to the doorstep of the old Bookbinders and rapped at the glass in the door. Tobey could hear the insistent rattle, even with the wind roaring down through the street between them. Now his curiosity faded from what the crew was doing and shifted instead to whether or not anyone would answer the knocking. The man remained there at the door, awaiting some response. It seemed like a long time, though it was really little more than a minute. While he waited, the man glanced back over across the street again, just for an instant.


Then, somewhat to his surprise, Tobey saw the door open. There was a woman there. He could not see great detail, but he was pretty sure it was a woman, an older woman in a severe looking, full length black dress. Her hair was very dark, drawn back in a tight bun perched atop her head. He thought that all she needed was the pointed hat and the broom. It certainly wasn't who, or what, he had glimpsed through the glass the day before, but she was spooky enough. He felt himself frozen there, unable to look away, until he thought her gaze extended beyond her guest and across the street to him. For just one instant he felt that they made direct eye contact. It brought a shiver up his spine and he quickly looked away.


Tobey then hastened back to his garage, where he planned to park himself in the back seat of the old Buick, twist one and blaze up before returning to his Playstation. Maybe tonight he'd leave the radio off.







 




 


 













Sunday, September 20, 2026

Eddie checked out

 



They say it was a shame about Eddie. I'm not so sure. In many ways, it is a sad tale, but not for Eddie. Wherever he may have gone.


There are people who were a part of Eddie's life who are sad. Some of them are probably angry. And if they are, well, they have a right to be. They should be angry. At themselves. Unfortunately, that changes nothing.


People who were only casually acquainted with Eddie, when learning of his disappearance, say that it was a surprise. So sudden. But it wasn't, really. People who were close to Eddie, and they are few, know better. They can't bring themselves to admit it, but they know.


It happened quite slowly, over years. Eddie's life was like a man living in a three-story house, who one day decides that he must secure every inch of the place. Starting on the top floor, locking every window and drawing the blinds, locking every door, methodically working down, down... until every point of egress was completely shut to the outside. He no longer cared to see. He no longer cared to listen. He no longer attempted to speak.


He could not be convinced that there was a problem. Some said he needed to be medicated. Some said he needed therapy. He went along with each, to humor them. The only beneficiaries of this were the therapist and the pharmacy. Some now say that he simply lost his mind. Nothing could be further from the truth. Eddie was the sanest man I've ever known.


I don't know where he went. I only know that one day Eddie walked into the forest and never came out. It was a number of days before any type of search was started. The search began with the expectation of finding not the man, but a body. They didn't really put a lot of effort into it; their search yielded neither.


There was nothing wrong with Eddie. He wasn't crazy. One day, like an epiphany bathed in a heavenly light, Eddie realized the peace that comes with accepting being the villain in someone else's story. He may have died out there somewhere. Or, he may have come out the other side and just kept going. Either way, we'll never know for sure. I'm pretty sure that is just how he wanted it.


Today marks ten years since Eddie took his long walk into the Daniel Boone National Forest. He is believed to be dead, and in all likelihood, he is. Whether alive or dead, I'm reasonably certain he is now at peace.


Edward Arthur Eberhard

1960- ?



Wednesday, September 9, 2026

Did Michigan really win that game?




The short answer to the question posed in our title is not a no. It's a hell no!


But... the truth is, I don't give a fiddler's fuck one way or t'other. I surrendered any remaining interest in NCAA football about fifteen years ago. Leading up to that time, there was a long-running and heated race between our major universities, and the NCAA as governing body for their athletic programs, to see which could earn the most of my contempt. That race is over; they both lost. 


The culminating event was the way that the NCAA "dealt with" the Penn State/Jerry Sandusky scandal. It would have been quite enough for the corrective actions taken by the university, even if those were too far after the fact. It would have been enough for those guilty of any crimes to have been tried and convicted by the Commonwealth under statute. Those reactions could not erase what happened, but it would have been sufficient as an appropriate response from those institutions. The NCAA's further punitive sanctions were purely theater; a supreme demonstration of institutional virtue signaling.


I had long suspected it, but this occasion finally confirmed my belief that the NCAA is run by a pack of greedy buffoons. These are life forms spawned in that toxic petri dish of academia, which they presume to govern. Well, the athletic programs anyway. Ostensibly. What, if anything, did their sanctions in this case have to do with athletics? These were not events that happened on the field. Why should all of those players' accomplishments from 1998-2011 be erased? What advantage did any of them gain from these events occurring within their program?


Well, we have an answer to that. Sort of. At the time, NCAA President Mark Emmert stated that the sanctions were, "not to be just punitive, but to make sure the university establishes an athletic culture and daily mindset in which football will never again be placed ahead of educating, nurturing and protecting young people." Nurturing? I'm sorry, what the fuck does that have to do with football? And further, do you really believe that Mark Emmert, or any other NCAA official, is sincerely interested in educating these young men? Was any of that 60 million dollar fine levied upon the university directed to education? And the Big 10 Conference, chiming in with a "Yeah! What he said!", to the tune of another 13 million? Translating from between the lines, it reads as "You better tell those fucking jocks to get their minds right!" 


I'll tell you what the NCAA has become. It's very far afield from the original charter. Ironically, we find one of the most biting illustrations from the same year that the Penn State scandal broke. Go back to the year 2011, on the program South Park, season fifteen, episode five: The Crack Baby Athletic Association. It is a parody, no doubt; yet it mirrors precisely what the NCAA is in practice. They still mouth allegiance to a creed that their actions betray. The money raked in from NCAA Football, by the association and the big conferences, is somewhere on an order of a billion dollars annually. Mind you that a significant number of those member institutions are state universities. 


The parade of greed and ineptitude on display from the NCAA was enough to turn me sour. Add to that, you have men who are rewarded with multi-million-dollar contracts to coach what are, I will remind you, are amateur athletes. Because according to the NCAA, they must be amateurs, lest they should lose their eligibility. The athletes are physically whoring themselves in exchange for that piece of paper their university will hand them, the very minute that their NCAA eligibility expires. The coaches are worth millions and the players? They get a deluxe crack baby orphanage. 


Ok, I will admit. There are some institutions which may have provided financial or other material rewards to players. I won't say that it has never happened. These amounts are miniscule in the grander scope of monies pouring into the sport. Those monies pouring into the sport, at both collegiate and professional levels, are increasingly coming in the form of advertising dollars from online betting services. Directly or indirectly, those dollars are making their way to the NCAA.


Which is why, my friends, I contend that the U of M did not win that game. I think that what happened last Saturday was something more like this...


Somebody at "Sportsbet.com", or any such, has a hotline to the head of officiating in each major conference. About a fraction of a second after "Final" was flashed on the television screen, the head of officiating for the Big 10 Conference found his phone lit up with a simple, two-word command: FIX IT. That official in turn was in contact with the head of officials on the field. Probably less than thirty seconds later. I won't hazard a guess as to who among them hatched the ridiculous "clock" story, but it didn't take very long at all for that to become the official script. Yep. That's our story and we're sticking to it. We don't care what you saw. This is how it happened.


I had no dog in this hunt. Still don't. I'm not carrying anyone else's water for them. I am, however, as a native Buckeye obliged to offer this to all the U of M fans. 


I still think you're number one


 


Thursday, September 3, 2026

I guess we can't avoid this...

 



The entire country seems to be wrapped up in this Lindsay Clancy trial.  I've been working on completing another short story - another one with time travel/interdimensional twists. I was progressing quite nicely with this, and then I made the mistake of reading a couple of opinion pieces about the trial. I sampled a couple out of MANY opinion pieces on this topic. No, really... I mean a shit ton of them. One would almost guess that there was nothing else going on, which is of course actually true on most days. If I had to make lemonade out of this, then I would say that it is at least a welcome respite from campaign ads.


This is a case which rapidly becomes a lightning rod. While the facts of the case seem rather clear; this woman did murder her three children and readily admits that she did, the sideshow evolving outside of the courtroom is ever shifting. The case has fostered a contagion of warriors for a variety of causes. The post-partum awareness and women's mental health cause; both the pro and anti abortion causes; the pro and anti-feminist causes, and yes, even the repeal the 19th amendment cause, have all enjoined their causes to this case. For good or ill.


If this was an act that can be excused for a hormonal imbalance, as a fair number of the feminist camp will contend, then it does not bode well for the state of their "movement". I'm quite certain that none of them are able to see this, but it exposes a glaring contradiction in their thought process. They fail to see that this defense of murder, excused by what is an exclusively feminine trait, helps to validate every argument ever made against women performing certain jobs. There are at least a few women that I have spoken with who seem to realize, that these card-carrying feminist types are fucking it up for ALL women.


There has developed a disturbing fandom, not just around the murderer, but around the case as a whole. We haven't seen anything like this since the OJ trial, which launched what we know as Court TV. Here is a case tailor made for Court TV. The OJ case had a lot of fanfare to herald it's arrival. This one seems to have snuck up on us. Part of that may just be due to the fact that in thirty years, the world has just grown that much colder and callous.


One of the first details that jumped at me about the case, was the fact that it is in the state of Massachusetts. We have witnessed precious little from our courts that should inspire much confidence. If any. If this is true, then it is true a thousand-fold for Massachusetts. Any of you follow the Karen Read trial(s)? Which were, incidentally, also in Massachusetts. A different jurisdiction, to be sure, but if the Read case is any kind of an indicator, then I fully expect the court in the Clancy case to cock it up.


There are those who say that the greatest danger here is that there may be no justice for these children. What justice can any court render for them? What ruling or punishment would bring them back to life? The point being, the justice isn't for them. The justice, inasmuch as any may be wrung from our courts, is for ourselves. A murder trial serves as an article of faith; that if the State can at least get this right, it absolves them of every other injustice that they perpetrate upon their people. It's a poor substitute for the real thing.


Nature does not deal kindly with child killers. If the natural law were at work here, no one would even know her name. There is a lot of ink being wasted on this bitch.


So, there. Since everyone else is talking about it...


More coming to Midnight and other beasts soon


Tuesday, September 1, 2026

Not a word here rhymes with anything

 



Curse the enigmatic and solitary case

All things seem simple on their face

below the surface

the waters get muddied

Contradicts all that you have studied

Histories written on the wing

not a word here rhymes with anything


A trick of rhetoric, verbal play

always talking yet little to say

Icebergs will grow

the deeper you dive

and differing conclusions will arrive

What new truths do they bring

not a word here rhymes with anything


Not adding up, the numbers aren't right

Try and try with all your might

Once it is twisted

it can not grow straight 

You can still try

but it may be too late

Seductive, like the sirens sing

not a word here rhymes with anything


Sunday, August 30, 2026

The Last Monarch




Today, with no malice aforethought, I am returned to that Sunday morning at the end of August 1997. I was out before the sun, amid the symphony of crickets and cicadas, tree frogs. All the traditional sounds of a late summer night. There was a feeling that I can not quite describe, perhaps something akin to Deja vu. I could not recall the exact date, yet I found myself thinking that this day had that same feeling as the morning we learned that Princess Diana was gone. 


By the actual anniversary date, we are off by a day; tomorrow, the 31st, marks twenty-nine years since her untimely death. Which was a Sunday morning. Sunday mornings all bear a certain natural taint in a predominantly Christian culture. I don't mean that as an insult of any kind. It's just a fact.


In 1997 I lived in a world where, whether one attended a church or not, Sunday mornings were reserved to a time of quiet reflection. Seated on a deck or beside a fire, depending upon the season. Morning tea and a cigarette in peace, before the world starts yammering away in your face. Maybe a Sunday newspaper, complete with coupons, comics and crossword. A time before smart phones, social media, podcasts and wi-fi. There was still quiet to be found in the world. Especially on a Sunday morning. One savored this time, often the only time in a week to pass in such a manner.


On that particular Sunday, no one yet had gotten around to turning on the television until about 9:00. To have a peaceful Sunday morning brought to a screeching halt by such a momentous event, was instantly jarring. The surreal nature of it, unfolding from the television, whilst a perfect, balmy, late summer morning still awaited beyond atrium doors. It was news that did not have any direct, personal impact for any of us Colonials; yet it arrived with such a gut punch quality.

It was like coming home from your first day at school, to hear from the television news that Santa Claus had perished in a collision with a B2 stealth bomber, somewhere off the coast of Labrador. Some slick correspondent in a trench coat stands at some bleak cliffside, the North Atlantic's angry sea spray cascades behind him while helicopters hover in the distance...." there were apparently no survivors, Tom. Santa Claus, dead today, at 483. This is Chad Baxter, reporting from the coast of Newfoundland..." Horrifying news delivered with a banal affect. You can't beat it.


I think it was the Sunday edition of the Today Show. I couldn't tell you who was on camera, and it doesn't really matter. It was the same on every network. For good or ill, she was probably the most famous woman on the planet. A lady, known by a select few, yet known to the world. After absorbing the news, I eventually returned to my deck. It was still a gorgeous morning on the cusp of Autumn, but something had changed. Somehow, the world would be different after this. You didn't know how, but you knew it.


She would be Queen today. Queen Diana. Nice ring to it. Given the sorry state of affairs in the UK today, one must wonder what a Queen Diana would think of the realm, in it's current misshapen form. It's hard for me to imagine her being quiet about it. Maybe that's why she is gone. Who knows. Her death signaled the end of something greater than herself. It was the end of the age of princesses. And princes, and Kings. As the twentieth century waned and spilled into the twenty-first, the way was cleared for a new and more venomous royalty to ascend. Bye-bye, empire, bye-bye.


We are witnessing the final days of the House of Windsor. Whether it is in the person of old King Chuckles, or in the more palatable Prince William, we will see the end of the Monarchy. Let's check back in a year, on the thirtieth anniversary, shall we?


We will bid farewell to Templeroy, the temple of Kings...







Friday, August 28, 2026

Insomnia




Two espressos, after dinner

a Blueshift Signal, oceans away

It didn't seem so late

the light still hanging on

and dusk passed to darkness unaware


Subtle, silent invitation

to share those crisp and scented sheets

The moments and passions

are cruelly spent

with so much of the night still to die


The Ficus with colored strands alight 

shines indifference so convincing

while polychromic shadows

upon the ceiling dance

Wide awake, staring, can't look away


There is some other place or time

that I might possibly belong

Other side of the mirror

of a Deja vu that's been

A thing that tells me I must leave


Insomniacs apologize

for the sorry state they are in

to the quiet conscience

of those who sleep




The Bookbinder, part 1

 20 November 1999 There had been some trick of the light, some distortion through the glass. Tobey was convinced that he had seen someone in...